friday thoughts - June 19th, 2020

could this be the start of a weekly writing thing (not calling it a blog ffs), i did one last Friday, then a rant earlier in the week, now i've started writing something again today. Feels good. Expressing thoughts in my head through another medium other than memes and shitposts has to be healthy, even if what i write ends up about the things i'm trying to pry myself away from. Again, i can't be bothered with sentence structure or grammar, i'm not going to review this, and i'm just going to keep typing until i've run out of things to say. more to myself than anyone else is what Friday thoughts could end up becoming, a dump of all the thoughts in my head that have accumulated over the week, a purge of all the frustrations built up, and just something else to focus on each week as i've always enjoyed writing.

i'm not sure i want to talk about trading this week, the btc range is slowing bleeding me dry, and i'll put my hands up and say i can't trade this fucking range. knowing when to walk away is a skill i'm still working on, and to be honest, i wish i'd walked away just prior to the halving dump. but the need to always be in the market is strong, especially with crypto (24/7 opening hours), and though i hate to admit it, also because of everyone talking about it on twitter - is really hard to down tools as they say. So yeah, btc has moved up still since the halving, but until it breaks out hard from 10k we're stuck bouncing around sideways which is shit. watching others milk the stock market right now is hard, i've never traded stocks, and now it feels too late, the fact i tweeted out that i was looking at the stock screener on trading view the other week was a signal to me that the fun could be coming to an end.

voice notes - do i even want to write about this, guess i should as its pissed me off the last few days, especially bully's voice notes as i can't not listen to them and he fucking knows this and is loving it, wouldn't surprise me if the guy continues to do it for all of next week as well. listening to gainzy on voice notes is funny, everyone thinking he's some old boomer in his 70s or something, but then you hear him talk and it's the complete opposite, kinda thinking that's why he did it, to perhaps curb the cobie old man abuse tweets lol. genuinely wonder what percentage of people still think he is an old timer, i know i did for a while tbf LOL.

reuse my memes, reuse others memes, share them, it's what they are for, BUT, take a meme and make out like you created it, that's a shitty move in my book. i don't think i've ever been annoyed about meme thievery before but for some reason having this meme pilfered irritated me somewhat. most likely because it was taken by a grown man calling him self 'bitboy' like some caped crypto crusader, so fucking cringe. crypto iNflUEnCeRs... sometimes makes me want this whole market to go to zero just so they scuttle off to some other industry to feed off another fresh batch of weak minded plebs who are so easily miss-guided into handing over their money to these parasites who have literally zero morals and will take all your money in a heartbeat if you give them the chance.

even writing down what i want here, there is an element of catering to an audience coming to the front of my mind, it's hard to put aside. why do we always feel the need to cater to other people? fitting in/being liked/wanting to be noticed, these are just a few things that come instantly to mind. if i was to write about my week at work i doubt anyone would get past the first paragraph, therefore i haven't. this is something to work on going forward (yes i'm talking to myself now reader) and you need to write what you want to write, otherwise the risk of things being forced will surface and the point of this will lose substance. anyway.

i hope you're doing ok, i hope you're getting by, i hope you continue to push forward with whatever it is that drives you each day. this is to myself and to anyone who is reading this, because no one else is going to say it to you, so you need to say it to yourself, you need to be your own motivator. don't rely on others to do it for you.